God, can you please help me trust You cuz honestly i don't completely and that's why i don't have the peace that surpasses all understanding that you promised to us. i'm so overwhelmed with life and soo stressed with school...i just need you in my life to take over it and make it go your way, not mine. please help me trust you cuz i can't go from not trusting you to completely trusting! :(

this summer hasn't felt like a summer at all. probably cuz of the business of camp and now i just feel a lot of pressure being with my family and grandparents all the time. i don't want school to start though...i wish i had more time to relax and spend with friends.

don't know what's wrong with me...i can help other ppl but i can't handle my own problems :( and i'm not happy anymore...or joyful i guess. sigh...sometimes i think there might really be something wrong with me :(

Funny or cute:

1. When my kids are at nature one day, we were building dams. Kwame raised his hand and said, "Can we have a beaver to put into our dam?" awwwwwwwwwwww :)
2. One morning, Danny says, "You're Mexican and sexy." i'm not sure who he was talking to since i was the only girl at the table. Christopher responds, "I hate Mexicans." lol...wow!
3. While waiting for the bus to pick us up on a pool day, Riley says out of nowhere, "If you go to a Mexican Hospital, I feel sorry for you. They will suck out all your blood and you'll die." I was thinking WHAT?! omg! I asked her where she learned that and she said TV hahaha....oh dear!
4. During lunchtime after we just got back from the pool, some of the boys (my favorites!) were lying down on the ground with their towels on top of them like a blanket! hehe they looked soo cute and precious snuggling up and eating at the same time! hehe Lauren wanted to do the same but she was upset cuz her towel was wet so my AC Julie was like, "Why don't you hug yourself? It'll make you feel better and warmer!" Lauren was like "But I don't have enough fur so I won't be warm" hehe awwwww I like how she said fur...like an animal hehe! :D
5. During playground time one day, Nicolas (ahh he's so cute and now one of my favorites! :D) bumped my and my AC Julie's knees together and he said "knee kissing! knee kissing!" haha uh...that was hilarious! then he bumped our arms together and was like "arm kissing!" he tried to bump our heads together too! but then Julie said, "Me and Ms. Steffi both like guys" and Nicolas said "What, you both want to die?" lol he heard wrong hehe!
6. Lauren said this about my first AC Wes, "Wes is a meanie cockroach who's fat! I hate him!" hahaha wow soo mean!
7. My first AC Wes would always wear his shorts kinda low so that his boxers would show! Lauren, one of my girls went up to him and was like "Wes, you don't know how to wear your shorts right because your underwear is always showing. I know how to wear my shorts right because my underwear never shows." ahahahaha lol :)
8. Three of my favorite boys, Matthew, Luke and Ben awwww they're adorable! They made up a new game called Midget tag! ahaha :) it's so cute! basically they tuck their legs under their shirt and hop around! one person's it and he hops around like that chasing the others while pretending to be midgets (or tucking legs under shirt and hopping around) hehe it looks absolutely precious and adorable!
9. oh dear...bathroom changing issues! lol this is mostly referring to the boys in my group! first, they strip all the time in front of others cuz they think it's funny! so whenever my group is changing, you hear screaming in the bathroom! also, once danny came out and giggling said, "Ms. steffi, christopher's underwear fell in the toilet!" i was appalled...like what?! omg! then i had to go in the boy's bathroom and i found out that actually chris's shoe fell in the toilet cuz kwame threw it in...oh dear! and he was wearing the shoe still cuz he said it was wet...ugh! hahaha
10. One day, my kids were obsessed with butts! While we were taking our group photo, Lyric sings "Scoot your booty in...scoot your booty in...scoot it scoot it!" Then Nicolas says, "I like big butts and i cannot lie!" Since he kept repeating that, soon all my kids were saying "I like big butts and i cannot lie!" oh dear...if that weren't bad enough, Logan comes out of the bathroom that afternoon and he says in a serious tone of voice, "Excuse me, can someone look at my butt?" ahahahha omg!
11. Nicolas goes up to a girl AC and tells her, "you're hairy...you're the hairiest girl!" hahaha wow! then he says "i'm hairy so i should be harry potter!"

Sweet, precious moments:

1. Lyric, my most difficult kid, keeps on calling me "Mommy!" and she always says "My steffi!" Today she said, "I have two mommies...you're my godmother!" awww :)
2. Kids can be soo sweet sometimes! During a rainy day departure one day, one little boy was crying because the slinky he bought from the camp store got tangled and since it was raining, his counselor couldn't take him to go exchange it at the store. It was a Friday so he'd have to wait a whole weekend to exchange it and he was soo upset! This little boy from another group that doesn't even know the crying boy just saw him crying and came over with five dollars. He was like "here's 5 dollars. you can use it to buy something from the camp store." i was like awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! he didn't even know the other boy and he offered him five dollars! and five dollars is a lot of money to a little kid! i was soo touched i know i was tearing!
3. Another sweet moment...during one latestay, the kids divided up into two teams to compete to see which team could complete an obstacle course first! the winning team received prizes which were gold medals. one of the boys in the losing team was feeling upset and crying cuz he wanted a prize too. One little boy on the winning team was like, "here you can have my medal. it's ok go ahead you can have it." the crying boy was like "no, you won it so you deserve it. it's you're not mine." and the other boy said, "no i think you should have it. here i'm giving it to you" and he did give up his prize to the other boy. awwwwwwwwwww :) kids...they just show that there is some good in everybody! <3333
4. During discovery time one day, we were discussing the topic of friendship! we went around the room asking everyone who their best friends were. half of the kids in my group hehe mostly the girls said "Ms. Steffi" in addition to other kids. i was like awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww :)
5. I was playing with one little girl Ayden and she was like clinging on to me the entire afternoon and latestay ahaha. at the end of the day she was like, "i love you ms. steffi!" awwww :) i was so touched!
6. my kids have hugged me to the point where i fell. like there were multiple ones hugging me or holding my hand/arm/whatever they can get a hold of lol at once that i literally fell over. looking back, they shower me with love :) just when i do something small like give them my attention or play with them, they love me so much! it's pretty amazing...being loved by a little child <3